• Love and expectations

    Love and expectations

    How I think love works in relationships is that it’s more about giving, not so much getting. Getting love is real nice, but if I have expectations attached to my giving, instead of love I will begin to accumulate resentments over time when those expectations are not met. When I give and let go of…

  • Happiness is directly connected to gratitude

    Happiness is directly connected to gratitude

    I heard, “Happiness does not make me grateful. It is gratitude that makes one happy.” My internal mental state is 100% my responsibility. Once I understood and took responsibility for my life experience, I began a daily practice of gratitude. The occurrence of my internal feelings of happiness immediately increased and occurred more frequently. My…

  • A thought about thoughts

    A thought about thoughts

    I cannot necessarily “choose my thoughts.” My thoughts just happen. It is the output of my brain. That is what my brain does, it thinks “thoughts.” I don’t have control over that, or even what the thoughts are. I am not my thoughts. I am the one noticing my thoughts and choosing whether to dwell…

  • When feelings returned

    When feelings returned

    I had always believed myself to be quite insane. I honestly believed that about myself ever since I was a little kid. There was some bit of misunderstanding going on when I came to that belief about myself. A doctor who had just examined me stated that I had ADHD. When I asked what that…

  • It was a dark and stormy night…

    It was a dark and stormy night…

    One night, I was out serving a felony warrant on some guy. I don’t remember what it was for, an armed robbery or something. As I approached the house, going by the address on the warrant, I spotted the suspect inside through an open window. He saw me too and immediately ran deeper into the…

  • Cheeto

    Cheeto

    Our doodle, Cheeto, is a good example of the difference between intelligence and wisdom. He is an incredibly good-tempered dog, very loving, very intelligent, yet he seemingly makes horrible decisions. A doodle, as I’ve come to find out, is another breed of dog mixed with a poodle, which is allegedly one of the smartest dog…

  • Know Thyself

    Know Thyself

    Note: This post contains discussion of suicide and mental health. “Know thyself” is an old Greek maxim which, based on personal experience, I can tell you has improved every aspect of my life. I see it as a dang good maxim, just a little wise saying that I repeat to myself as a personal reminder.…

  • Letting go of control

    Letting go of control

    Whether I feel something is “good” or “bad” is based entirely upon my ability to predict the future (which isn’t good at all). The thing I label in my mind as a “victory” might actually be the beginning of my demise, and the thing that I think is a disaster might be the start of…

  • Journal on a bench.

    Journal on a bench.

    So, this will be my first blog entry for my new blog. If you are reading this, well, that’s interesting. I’d probably ask myself, “Why?” I’m not selling anything. I’m not promoting anything. I’m not collecting anything. I’m not trying to convince you, the casual reader, of anything. I don’t profess to possess “the truth,”…