• Sufferings

    Sufferings

    I’m not telling anyone else what to do, this is just what I do. When I perceive suffering (s), negative energy, and such going on in my life, I first express my suffering with at least one person. I never want to hold onto my “problems” alone. So I always have a safe fellow traveler…

  • I can control the rudder

    I can control the rudder

    I have it that distilled down, ultimately the only thing I can truly control in life is that which “I” choose to focus my attention on, the decisions I make and the actions I take. Not much else. When I am entranced by my internal thoughts it requires active effort to catch myself and to…

  • Practice

    Practice

    I haven’t posted anything in a while. I am aware of that, and I’ve really been itching to get to it. I’ve just been busy. Life has me pointed in a lot of interesting directions right now. I’m learning a lot of new things, and I’ve gotten busy doing that. I still screw off quite…

  • Now is the time for change

    Now is the time for change

    Value lies in potential. It’s not what I’ve done in life that determines my value or my self-worth. It’s what I’m going to do that determines those things. Likewise, it’s not what I’ve done that determines whether I am “good” or “bad.” It’s what I’m going to do next that determines that. Change happens now.…

  • Small tests of trust

    Small tests of trust

    I think we test each other’s authenticity and vulnerability every time we interact. One person shares a small part of themselves. They offer a little authenticity. The other person then has a choice. They can ignore it. They can judge it. They can change the subject. They can use it against them later. Or they…

  • My Life’s Value

    My Life’s Value

    I was questioned about my self-worth today. How do I measure it? Where do I find it? Has it changed? That might not have actually been the question. It’s simply where my mind went when the question was asked. Actually… I don’t even remember the question anymore. Anyway… I changed the standard of measurement I…

  • The morning path

    The morning path

    The reason I meditate daily, as I’ve written before, is because it clarifies the path to internal peace for me. When I notice I don’t have peace internally, I know where to look. My spiritual practice has made that path well worn. It’s familiar now. Peace is generated internally—in that direction. The physical world, on…

  • Sharp Edges and Twisted Knots

    Sharp Edges and Twisted Knots

    Once I had a spiritual awakening, everything suddenly shifted for me. Before that, I was only aware of the world on the front side of my eyeballs. The Tao describes it as the Ten Thousand Things. I’ve also heard it described as the place of “sharp edges and twisted knots.” That’s the world on the…

  • Self versus chicken wings

    Self versus chicken wings

    There was this thing that happened to me that suddenly changed everything. It happened when I was at Save A Warrior. I was given a certain number of questions of a spiritual nature to ponder. Questions to consider and sit with. It was as if I were looking down at all these spiritual questions as…

  • Depth of relationships

    Depth of relationships

    As I went through recovery for Complex PTS, which I’m still going through, actually, I changed my relationships. At one point, I realized in an instant that all of the good things I’d been searching for in life rested in a place where I had made no investments my entire life. I had made no…